This is written 12 days before his “diado” or grandpa in Bulgarian died from cancer

Cancer is really scary. It is scary because now my diado is going to die. This makes me feel mad, I have fears he will never make my mom laugh again.
 
"Dear grandpa,

 How life is weird, how are you? No one loving is here for you in this wild world. I love you and mom, so have it your way now. Have it like you want. Now I got it to do it now or I will go in your room. Might not make home happy if you go. Regularly I have so much to say so please round up your interest right now my quietly my stunt is to still make me my stopping place. My life is with you eternally. I might not have it in my mind I just want to say it, I love you no matter what. I feel so sorry I can’t take it. I might not help you if I can’t talk so forgive me. My heart is full so love forever. In the end it will be ok. Love diado (my note:diado is grandpa in Bulgarian).